Ever have the feeling that the Universe is trying to tell you something? Something that you just can’t ignore? Let me share vulnerably what happened to me recently.
This last year has been a tough year physically for my body. One thing after another, from shingles, to thyroid imbalances, to adrenal fatigue, my body has felt compromised. It all came to a head on the July long weekend when I could barely get out of bed.
I was so depleted and concerned that something was severely wrong with me and the lump on the side of my throat. I sought medical, energetic and spiritual support. I had to embrace my very low energy. There was no pushing through it this time (in fact, I clearly saw how many times I’d done that in the past).
Gratefully, I improved enough that I could go on our annual camping trip to Montana this past week. Little did I know how important this trip was. Normally when I’m in Montana, I spend the mornings exercising and the afternoons on the boat in the hot sun. This year, it was different. My mornings were for reading and a short walk; my afternoons were for resting. Only twice did I go on the boat. The whole time, my mind was judging this new pace as a “problem”. But my Spirit kept saying… there is no problem here. (Honestly, it was tough to truly hear her…)
Every morning I walked through the forest and listened to the Deepak & Oprah meditations on the Energy of Attraction. It was magical. I felt connected to all things… to the trees, the animals, the clouds, the sun, and that limitless field of possibilities. At times, I felt I was in another land. I’m sure other walkers I passed must have thought I was crazy as I talked out loud to the birds and flowers and the occasional deer I met on the path.
On the last day, something happened that I’m still processing. I was returning from this beautiful look-out point where I would sit and meditate, and just as Deepak was talking about the ‘breath of the Universe’ this noise came up from behind me. It sounded like wind but much louder. I looked back expecting to see a huge storm at my heels. But nothing. I looked up at the tall trees to see if the wind was picking up, but there was just a slight sway. Yet the noise was increasing.
Whooooo-whooooo. It was e-e-r-y!
Scared and unsure, I began to jog. I needed to get to safety because something was brewing. I ran for about 30 steps. Then something stopped me.
What if I wasn’t to run from this? What if there was nothing to fear?
Turning around, I let the breeze lift the hair on my head and arms. With eyes closed, I just let this energy move through me, listening to the forest, feeling it come alive. It was definitely trying to speak to me. I could feel my eyes well up, my heart swelling. With arms opening to embrace this magic, I turned slowly in a circle taking it all in.
Whatever this was, I was meant to feel it. Whatever it was trying to tell me, I was listening. It was like I had no choice.
I stood there silently for what felt like minutes, every cell in my body tingling.
And then came the message over my right shoulder.
“The pursuit of your abundance must match the depth of your destiny.”
The pursuit of my abundance must match the depth of my destiny. I repeated that line several times. In that moment, I knew that what I’ve been experiencing in my body this past year was no accident. It wasn’t even a problem, just like my Higher Self said.
All along, it has been my soul trying to get my attention to go deeper, awaken and evolve…
To bring more meaning to my work and see a Higher Purpose for my existence on this earth.
Wow… I sat on this rock to take this all in, peace just washing over me, like waves, again and again.
I’m meant to take my work deeper, to bring ALL of my spiritual and intuitive gifts to the table and to really grow them by living in them fully. I am meant to infuse MORE Spirit into the work I do and to guide women in creating abundance from that deeper place too.
I’m beginning to ask new questions like:
What is my Higher Purpose?
What is my contribution to evolving consciousness?
How do I want my brand to reflect this?
How must I grow personally and professionally to step into this?
These are not small questions. They have the power to move heaven and earth.
What I realized this past week is that every part of me is ready. This shift is not optional for me; my physical body depends on this alignment for her health and vitality.
And so here I go. Fully in.
I can’t wait to see how this journey unfolds and shapes my work in the world. Thank you for letting me share my process with you.
If you can relate to messages for the Universe, I’d love to hear in the comments below! I’m especially curious if you’re being asked to go deeper in your work.
Supporting Your Abundant Success,
Paula
Hi, I loved your blog post. I don’t know what to do. I’m working on a toxic environment… i also had thyroid surgery a few months ago. My thyroid isn’t controlled by my medicine yet and I feel nauseous and super anxious etc everyday. My dr is aware of my work and health situation and she recommended a few weeks ago I go on short term leave. It would take about 4 weeks approval which scares me since financially I don’t have much help… I keep feeling those nudges in my soul head and body to go on leave. But I almost need to plan it out. But I feel like a scared pup.
Hi there, thanks for your comment. Sending you, your body and in particular your thyroid so much love and healing light. Thyroid can relate to the throat chakra and being able to speak your truth — believing deeply that your voice matters. You matter. Does this resonate? I know it can be scary to trust what your body and soul are saying, and yet it’s so important. I agree that having a plan can help ease the fear. I have found that if we don’t listen, the messages can get louder. While I don’t know your particular situation, are there small actions you can take to protect yourself better in your current work environment as you build your plan? One step is to create an energetic bubble before you enter work — reminding yourself of your worth, and what is yours to take on and what isn’t. You could also do some sort of energetic “shaking off” to shed any toxic energy you picked up. Even taking a walk or breaks during the day for deep breaths and grounding may help you. Will you give those a try? Sending love.